Wishing...

Wishing that I never had a day of regrets...I never had a day of feeling afraid...I never had a day when I felt like I'd never feel hope again...I never had a day of missing folks so much that my heart felt like it was caving in...I never had a day when my eyes burned from crying so much - and I couldn't stop!...I never had a day of feeling guilty for the consequences of decisions I made...I never had a day of wishing I was more or could do more to make a difference...I never had a day when I doubted...I never had a day when loneliness overwhelmed me...I never had a day when I felt too weak or tired or selfish to be a blessing to others...
But if I never had a day - or two or two-thousand - like one of those days, there's a good chance I'd forget that my heavenly Father is just waiting for me to turn to Him, to let Him envelop me in His kindness and mercy, to melt into His heart to be refreshed and renewed, to rest in His steadfast love. And those are things I can't afford to forget. So if what it takes to keep me close to Him is a bad day every now and then - well, bring it on.